Still feel completely unmotivated. There seems to be no earthly hope in anything ever getting better for me.
I’m so unmotivated that I didn’t even go get food, even though I have the means – So I had two burritos and a piece of bread all day
I realize now what a cold, uncaring person I am. I am so dead in my heart, my feelings. I don’t want to be around anyone, even people at church.
Stay clear of pornography. It fills the heart with a deadness towards real people, like my family
Friday rent is due –